Animated drawings

sleep walking…..while awake

obscure walking

walking in transmission!

which chair are you?……today?

walking meditations

 WTF walking

elevated they divide….passages of time…under..over…through….building…burning all at once clearly bridging ….gaps…..

‘thought’

a breakthrough at last
flyaway!

when it comes time to keeping thought….”I find it difficult”

Injured you say….? how’s she doing now? I spy her own restoring home brew.

how to push your own pattern

I don’t think any longer!

whats your biggest challenge today?

if I can only hold on to these moments

enrol now…..jump in everything else pales into insignificance

i just heard a line “she lived close to silence”….I wonder what that would look like?

wind me up …watch me go… energy released….for a while
until the friction dies winds-down

RAGE…”something like this happens, completely out of the blue, and its a wake-up call”

today i let my thoughts run away with themselves

Am I seeing the looking/searching at for forest or the trees?

Suspended spirits

continuously circulating

the supported carrier …..

of life a …….short ….elevated existence …..

because i care…..I’m  exhausted

because i don’t care…..I’m exhausted

because i feel helpless…I’m exhausted

because i’m surrounded by negativity….I’m exhausted

withdraw….observe….exhaust

falling prey to the forces of gravity….tripped up in the present lay still…..maybe it will pass

now is life……life is now………now is life…..life is now…..

in pain…….how to grow your own first aid kit……….

when life is on the line……

no-ones going to find me in here this new location

ever felt like you are sleep walking through life?….trying to avoid the ‘bumpy’ bits!

repeat after me………forget the din of the world offers….. long lasting relief!

repeat….slowly ….repeats itself

should you stack?….. or have you stacked?…..or are you stacking ?…..right now?

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going to ground #5…..two years on

time marches …on…&…on
looking out ….is it different?
looking in is it still?….wanting
a place familiar…..within..without

I’m parched
for what?
for cracks to appear
slowly…..

complicate
capture
small threads
& webs

don’t endure the pain build time out of your day to tell your story

starting today start enjoying possibilities

      life is ………….the line!

holding on to these moments

be gentle….fighter the rest of us are just visiting!

random #4

im often asked about the effects on those left behind

loss repeated ….big time
loss repeated…..long time…short time
last time …..loss repeated

gone forever? where? When? How did this happen? Why? Who are you…..still?

Its been over a year

& just when I thought your weight

was lifting steadily  crushing

downwards came ….again

because  i hold on i cant find ‘it’! because i let go i release ‘it’! because i hold on i search for ‘it’! because i let go i no longer search!

have to say……that its still hard……..its still got the power

spare a thought…for tomorrow

i just wanted to show them  be an independent, grown-up adult

sometimes you just need……. to sit  ..to tell what its like where you live

close enough

close enough…..need to know…..close enough

too tight

breathe

what!

waiting for …’what’?

i watch out the window……

I’m waiting for ‘what’?

i sit patiently………

I’m waiting for ‘what’?

i put things on hold………

I’m waiting for ‘what’?

i pace up & down…….

I’m waiting for ‘what’?

i grow intense…….

tug

tug one…..& all…. tug for two……or more tug a crowd……. tug in silence……. tug inside……..& out…….just tug

they come & they go these dead-lines…… they build with pressure these dead-lines…… they demand commitment these dead-lines…… yet still i procrastinate about these dead-lines……..

time

…..to  think…do…..

intensive care

nothing more certain…..

random#4

why? one is not amused! What do you do?…strung out ……..

i would rather be run over

random#3

at the end …bid…..protect…..anythingBUTordinary

insider

see what unfolds……bitter sweet memories…

random#2

time after time….i want to ask…..about moments…what bits are trickiest to do?

limited edition……I would come to & find myself with strange people”…….does anyone need to know?

there is a chance when pictures & words meet…..

sos

random

pictures meet words…..strange bedfellows…..picked out of thin air…..  out of the ordinary……. meeting of the minds!

Bingethinkingpictures

now is life….. life is now……..

binge thinking

marching on ….one after the other…they come… small…..medium ….very large…….an enticing array of colours…..which one will attract attention?……to join or not to join…?

pull yourself together!

pack it well
choose the contents……carefully
whats that?….keep that one….no need for this one……now chuck it ….pack to fill…..tightly…..bursting
but not to weigh down…

the meeting

it’s soon….maybe…this meeting….a heads or tail chance….about to happen  maybe…anticipated ….when, where, here, now…….maybe….it’s soon

bingethinking

i board …..slow…riding alone….gathering speed …..new heights……don’t look down….when only the sky will do…..carefree …..dizzy heights…far & wide….i get on board

because i remeber ….i feel found

because i remember….i feel lost

because i remember…..both

i feel am lost & found

re-viewing going to ground

 when i set out G2G for a year….i was prepared for new directions to my work…..parts coming together…BUT i had not anticipated the my mind field…a mind gone wild…..free associations….

imploding on each other ….plus some more……over & over…….mind-full!

friendly advice

“it will all work out in the end…..& if it’s not working out it’s not the end”

bingethinking

im trying to highjack thoughts

deep ones down under …..deep

i need to become like a scuba diver….

into the murky waters….beyond what you imagine……come up slowly….trying to avoid the bends…..

how to recover a chair

exhausted ...its ageing ….its tired….its worn...needs some TLC……to recover

rejuvernate….bit by bit

restore….wisely

renew….remnants  gently

repair….moments in time stitch by stitch

slowly …but surely …..hour by hour...moment by 

broken chair

shattered….fallen to pieces mend deeply….souls parts… good as gold….no one will notice…….

easy chair

cosy luscious….fit
relief..to as you sink into it….satisfaction ….guaranteed
stay undisturbed….for a while….

bingethinking

what would will your my the design blueprint look like?….my your choice choose….

materials…..vast and varied…….will it make be a sound structure? ……will it need bracing?

will you i enjoy the process? …..and do all the parts fit exactly?…….take time

make an effort……will it be worthwhile?………when its finished

bingethinking

on a wing and a prayer wish …i free fall

plummeting   into the unknown….whereabouts….where will i land?

i let go…………who will catch me catch me if you can

bingewriting

what do i remember about…….?
when pen takes to paper….what will I see?…..subconsciously

as words become clear

what will i remember?….with clarity

I could be surprised……about myself

what a relief this pattern is…

embossed to conceal

hiding hides beneath….nothingness

falling into the gap

the silentce…..what a relief this pattern is

ripples

it started small …very small ….expanding …..power…..moving …..extending…..one after another….how many ways?

recover

refresh…reconstruct relations…repair to the original & rejuvenate …a place to renew & re-establish

bingethinking

drowning in a sea see of…thoughts

rushing in …..& as they flashing by…

in a split second…..sinking feeling

trying to hold on...in deep water deep in thought

bingethinking

I am out on a limb…….don’t look down…two sheets to the wind…..out of my depth

walking a fine line…….precariously placed

I am out on a limb………nothing ventured nothing gained

when the wind questions……life……..solves……..never ending…….change…..learn…..the other side………acknowledge ……different…..when the wind changes……….change

flight

which way to go up or down…..? reaching one way or the other……step carefully

bingethinking

they pile up these things called thoughts

a jumble mess of from tangled minds

one on top piled high…….these things called thought

wallpaper

the pattern is bold…..a cover-up……fall into a silent…..gap!

studio

open the door…….I can’t move…….barely a place to think breathe

the need for solitude is palpable!

noise a silent curse

hear silence

not able …...to listen to nothing

refrain from….the spokenspeaking word

not wanting to……utter a sound

bingethinking

lucky dip……….surprise ‘me’

imagine….’me’

choose ‘me’

treasure ‘me’

reveal ‘me’

possible ‘me’……run away with ‘me’

or pass ‘me’…..unnoticed

lucky dip

open source

what would it look like these apps for life?

tag……..life lessons

search….forgiveness

file………loneliness

delete……hate

flag…..happiness, joy & love

prioritise…….empathy

download…the environment

place all in a folder………and share………….this app for life!